Today I've finally completed another phase. Last year i've started my TB treatment and faced most of my internal ghosts.
I really remember that morning, going to our public medicical service and receiving the info that even if I was not looking seek, I was carrying two focuses of tuberculosis. Even if I wasn't being a propagator of this disease I couldn't wait to get worse and only then start treatment.
When I look to that, i remember thinking that after my divorce I should no longer deserve any kind of pain or suffer but that thing we call destiny, life, God, Universe force, thinks different.
After 4 months of treatment with really boring collateral effects my ganglions stopped responding on treatment which made me one new member of multiresistent tuberculosis. That carryed me to a surgery and then more 3 months with drugs.
Hard, sad, painfull days of recovering of my neck.
On that days, I just remember something that my lighty friend Prem Mangla said: Paula just look foward and go that's what life is telling you.
On november 22, I got my "go live" and during these 120 days we've been waiting to see if I'd be healthy. And here I am, absolutely fine.
I wouldn't pass through all of it without good angels that life brought to me. I won't forget how much love and attention i received and how blessed am I for this.
Now, i'm still moving foward understanding that life can hardly changed into a hell when you're not expecting and the famous "carpe diem" is really the way we should base our lives.
Brazil is one of the countries that contribuits with 80% of TB cases over the world. TB doesn't kill when it's discovered sooner as most diseases we know. Just don't give up on treating neither speaking about this. It's a reality and if it happens to you start telling people to be less ignorant about that. It's a normal life, with lots of drugs for 6months but nothing more than this.
